i went to zen service tonight. the first time in a couple months. the talk was given by a new member who has been practicing zen for years in NY. he told his life story. it was a story with a lot of tragedy at the start and a little more in the middle, but a joy - he says - at the end. the leader asked if you have found joy, why continue practice? he said my life is practice. he is a therapist now and left his wife to come out of the closet.

ive been extraordinarily busy with work and PTP this week. im at home about 2 hours at night and 1 hour in the morning and the rest im gone. at work or doing something ptp related or hanging out with my buds. its been good. the cat keeps getting inbetween me and the keyboard so ill sign off now and go to bed.