I went to a listener get-togethher today of my favorite internet radio station, radioparadise.com. I got there early. There was just one table of people, an older but youthful looking tie-die white bearded hippie looking guy, a short stocky loud woman with a laugh that could scare children, and some other guy. I debated approaching the table and decided to just sit by myself for a while, reading the Diamond Age book I brought. I was enjoying the book, but also feeling embarassed over being fearful and self conscious in this particular situation. A group of other folks joined them and everyone seemed to know each other, like a family reunion. I tried to get over my self-conscious feeling, but I could not. Id try again, in my mind. But I could not. I got tired of the struggle and left. I thought to myself, in this way, I am not free. I am not a free in this way - enslaved like a baby elephant that grew up with a leg shackle and now a thundering adult will not try to break the chain.It bothered me some that I could not do what I set out to do, controlled by my subconscious more than my conscious mind. In another way it didnt bother me at all. It was something to be felt, observed, and understood. I think I did understand my feelings more than ever. The actual act can be a stimulus to understanding, but its the understand itself that is most important.

On the bike ride home I picked up some of my favorite drug, bitter-sweet chocolate (caffene). I think it helped me to think during the rest of the ride home.

I thought of some other things on the way home. I believe that it is a useful metaphore to consider everyone on the earth the earth to be a choosen, lucky few. And that the Earth was created with abundant resources, ample enough that noone should go without food, clothing, and shelter. No matter what money or lack of money someone makes, no matter what debt or abundance someone has, everyone should be provided for. Some ways to realize this is ideas like free housing the lure of which would be so large that a separate city would have to be set up. There is certainly enough land to give every human being a chunk of it*. Becuase this setting would be so different from mainstream society, it would have to be setup away from everyone else. Like out in the Oregon desert. The Northern to Northwestern part of the state is very nice.

• Earth data: Surface: Total Surface Area: about 509,600,000 square km (197,000,000 square miles) Area of land: 148,326,000 km2 (57,268,900 square miles), this are 29% of the total surface of the Earth Area of water: 361,740,000 km2 (139,668,500 square miles), this are 71% of the total surface of the Earth. 97 percent is salt water, only 3 percent is fresh water

Substance: The earth consists predominantly of Oxygen, Silicon, Aluminum, Iron, Calcium, Sodium, Potassium, Magnesium, Nickel and Carbon

Population: 6 Billion and growing

148,326,000sq km / 6,000,000,000 people = 0.024721 square kilometers of land per person. or 24.7 square meters of land per person.

There would have to be allocaton for common areas and big chunks of the land are pretty uninhabitable.